December 12, 2008

Inconsistencies

They say what you put in your shopping cart at the grocery store reveals a lot about you. If that is true, then I think late-night trips likely reveal even more.

What did I bring home from the store last night?
  • (2) cans organic soy-based infant formula
  • (2) bags organic teddy grahams
  • (2) decidedly non-organic individual pies, apple and cherry
  • (1) bottle of the cheapest cheap-ass red wine available
  • (1) bag beef jerky
It may seem to be the diet of a very conflicted family. I was hunting for some comfort food. (And noticed the teddy grahams were on sale.) Cancer seems to have given us back Judy (yay!) this week, but it also took a member of my husband's family. Days before we were to fly down to see him again. Sometimes you just have to sit down with a sugary pocket of pie goodness (or in T's case, meat sticks and bad wine) and hope for a little break.

In other news, I'm going against the wishes of probably every last child in my town and hoping that it doesn't snow this weekend. Ms B is supposed to come up tomorrow to spend a couple of days with us. I'd hate to see her trapped at home when she's so wanting a little Firefly fix. Firefly is thisclose to crawling and it would be fun if Ms B could share in that milestone. And I find myself wanting a little B fix for myself. It's a different feeling for me, one that's causing me to rethink some things about the role affection plays in our open adoptions (current thoughts: helpful to have, harmful to fake).

8 comments:

Guera! said...

I find your relationship with the birth parents of your children absolutely amazing, unselfish and inspiring.

Sonya and Scott said...

I find myself having more affection toward one of my boys b-moms more than the other---and it's NOT the one who shows more affection to me. VERY conflicting for me as well! As much as you would like life to be equal and fair--it's not. I don't like to fake it either.

luna said...

sorry about the loss in your family.

hope you get your fix soon. curious to hear more on affection...

GreenEggsNHam said...

Because I always enjoy reading your posts, I just gave you another reason to write... I've tagged you!

http://waitingfortheukulele.blogspot.com/2008/12/ive-been-tagged.html

Lori said...

I'm so sorry about your loss. Cancer sucks. There's just no other way to say it. And believe me, I've tried sugar and carbs but neither seemed to change that fact.

Since the storm seems to be milder than expected, I hope you are having a wonderful visit. And go Firefly, GO!

a Tonggu Momma said...

I'm so sorry about your family's recent loss. Cancer really, truly sucks.

abebech said...

I'm reminded of the line from a short story about the Shopping cart of a woman at the end of her rope. Can't remember what story (sorry! It's probably fantastic) but my cart has looked like that cart on occassion.
Sorry for your loss.

justenjoyhim said...

Thanks for the shout-out, but mostly, I am so so very sorry for your loss. Cancer is so so unfair. *hugs* and prayers to you and your loved ones loved ones.

xo,
Judy

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